Sunday, January 31, 2010
Now I know why i choose friends over family,
Because there is no such thing as home,
Because they treat me like a maid,
Why I'm the one who was born to that family?
Why I'm the only one who doesn't deserve love from my family?
My dad always come back from work just know how to scold me and my older brother,
He never think about our feelings,
But he very seldom scold my little brother,
That's why I hate him,
My mum, although she past away already but she loves the most is my older brother,
Not me or my younger brother,
I'm the only one is been left out,
That's why i hate my family,
I hate them the most.
I choose friends because they are here with me,
They make my sadness into kindness,
I feel that they love me more than my parents,
Without them,
I think I'm still a useless human to this world,
I love them,
I miss them,
Their lives is my life,
Their souls is my soul,
Their sadness, happiness, loneliness, sorrowful and painful are all inside with me,
I want happiness instead of sadness,
I want things to be bright instead of becoming dark,
I'm afraid of the dark,
Only friends bring the brightness to me,
They've saved me who I am and what I am,
They've saved me from the darkness,
But the darkness keep coming to me,
It's hurt a lot,
The darkness is growing bigger inside me,
I guess only outside from my house,
I can get the brightness,
In the house,
It's like I'm staying in a big cage,
Darkness all over the place,
I rather die instead of suffering,
No matter how much I do,
It is all a rubbish to them,
They don't treat me like their daughter,
I want to get out from here,
I don't want to stay in the darkness,
I want to stay in the brightness,
That bring happiness to me,
Maybe now,
I'm useless to everybody..
4:02 PM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Why love have to suffer so much?
Why is it so hard to forget the person I love?
Why wont he like me?
Why he like another person but not me?
Why should I cry for him?
Why should I love him?
Why he keep on hurting me?
Why can't I just die?
Why the god wont let me die?
Why the god want me to suffer?
When will I give up on him?
Why he make me suffer so much?
I really hope one day,
He could tell me the answer...
4:14 PM
Today you call me,
I was so happy to hear from you,
I was so shy when I talk to you,
I don't dare to tell you that I miss you,
I don't dare to tell you that I still love you,
Because I know that you don't like me anymore,
But I'll never give up,
To the answer i really want to know it from you,
I really wan tell you.....
I LOVE YOU....
3:50 PM
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sorrow and Loneliness
Painful and Sadness
Love?!
Everyone also want to
believe in love,
I also want to
believe in love,
But once you were dump,
Its very hard to
believe in it anymore,
If I am strong,
Will I still
believe in love?
Will I still fall in love?
Will I still fall for the same guy?
Will I still accept other guys?
Will I still have the same feeling?
Who could answer this questions to me?
2:05 AM
When I like another guy,
I still will think about you,
I always say that I can forget you,
But deep inside my heart,
I really can't forget you,
But once I say I already forget you,
My heart is very pain,
I don't know why,
Maybe I still can't let you go?
Maybe I still love you?
Maybe I still can't forgive you?
I always want to let you go,
Because we are impossible to be together,
Because everyday , every time , every minute and every seconds,
You will hurt me,
But I still can't let you go,
I tried my best,
To like another person,
But I still will think about you,
I don't know what to do,
Every time I see you,
My heart is jumping very fast,
However,
You like the one is not me,
You like the one is someone really important to me,
Every time I think about the past,
I feel so sad,
Don't know what to do,
You are in my heart,
Although , I like somebody else,
Better than you,
But I love the most is not him,
But you,
Because I really love you,
I can't let you go....
1:47 AM
Saturday, December 26, 2009
When the first time I met you,
I feel like I kinda like you,
When the first time we go out,
I feel so happy that I finally can hang out with you,
When you ask me to be your girlfriend,
I feel so happy until want to cry,
When the first time we go home together,
You gave me a kiss on my cheek,
I was very happy,
Few days later,
You sms me,
Say that you don't like me anymore,
You say that you like another girl,
Tears roll down to my cheeks,
I feels like want to cry and die,
The story is like,
We climb up on a mountain,
Until the top,
Suddenly you push me down,
All the way down,
I was hurt, very hurt,
My heart becomes like a broken heart,
Feel empty inside my heart,
Feel that you are gone,
I want to ask you why,
But you ignore me,
But when I saw you,
I pretend to be happy,
Pretend that I don't like you anymore,
Pretend that I like another guy,
Pretend to laugh happily in front of you,
But deep inside my heart,
I still love you,
Really love you,
I always hope that you would say 'I LOVE YOU' to me,
Buy I know that will never happen...
7:30 PM
