Sunday, January 31, 2010
Now I know why i choose friends over family,
Because there is no such thing as home,
Because they treat me like a maid,
Why I'm the one who was born to that family?
Why I'm the only one who doesn't deserve love from my family?
My dad always come back from work just know how to scold me and my older brother,
He never think about our feelings,
But he very seldom scold my little brother,
That's why I hate him,
My mum, although she past away already but she loves the most is my older brother,
Not me or my younger brother,
I'm the only one is been left out,
That's why i hate my family,
I hate them the most.
I choose friends because they are here with me,
They make my sadness into kindness,
I feel that they love me more than my parents,
Without them,
I think I'm still a useless human to this world,
I love them,
I miss them,
Their lives is my life,
Their souls is my soul,
Their sadness, happiness, loneliness, sorrowful and painful are all inside with me,
I want happiness instead of sadness,
I want things to be bright instead of becoming dark,
I'm afraid of the dark,
Only friends bring the brightness to me,
They've saved me who I am and what I am,
They've saved me from the darkness,
But the darkness keep coming to me,
It's hurt a lot,
The darkness is growing bigger inside me,
I guess only outside from my house,
I can get the brightness,
In the house,
It's like I'm staying in a big cage,
Darkness all over the place,
I rather die instead of suffering,
No matter how much I do,
It is all a rubbish to them,
They don't treat me like their daughter,
I want to get out from here,
I don't want to stay in the darkness,
I want to stay in the brightness,
That bring happiness to me,
Maybe now,
I'm useless to everybody..
4:02 PM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Why love have to suffer so much?
Why is it so hard to forget the person I love?
Why wont he like me?
Why he like another person but not me?
Why should I cry for him?
Why should I love him?
Why he keep on hurting me?
Why can't I just die?
Why the god wont let me die?
Why the god want me to suffer?
When will I give up on him?
Why he make me suffer so much?
I really hope one day,
He could tell me the answer...
4:14 PM
Today you call me,
I was so happy to hear from you,
I was so shy when I talk to you,
I don't dare to tell you that I miss you,
I don't dare to tell you that I still love you,
Because I know that you don't like me anymore,
But I'll never give up,
To the answer i really want to know it from you,
I really wan tell you.....
I LOVE YOU....
3:50 PM
